so..this is really

...goodbye..

i heard the sad news from my cousin yesterday. told me you left quietly. i said a little prayer for you as you embarked on your new journey and hoped that the angels were there to keep you safe and watch over you. i know you are now free from all the pain and discomfort. you rightly told me so, just 3 nights ago in a dream. it was so typical of you. to suddenly burst out and said.."hey..!! i'm okay already. see...no more pain" ..and you gave that signature laugh of yours, and i noticed that you "looked" so very very young..

and when i told mom about it over the phone the very next day and she relayed that dream to you..i'm sure you must have smiled a little smile in between labored breaths, coz you probably knew it already..and when mom told me that you'd been talking the past few nights about some departed relatives showing up suddenly in the middle of the night, i kinda knew it too..

and yesterday, mom told me that you went so peacefully, after all your cousins and siblings regaled and reminisced to you the old times down at the old house on Burmah Road. i'm sure it brought back a great lifetime of memories for you, beautiful and joyful memories that you softly and quietly took with you...

i'm so sorry i was not there to say goodbye to you, mostly becoz i hate goodbyes but i also know you probably didn't want me to...and i know you know that one fine day, we will all meet again and i'm sure you will have plenty of stories to tell us for eternity..





p/s: i hope you are taking the paper crane with you..

2012..

Oh oo...



if these movie trailers dont scare you..maybe the link will...





..end of the world..

two pictures...

..pirated these pics from somewhere..i cannot remember where from...haha
but i guess the message is rather clear..

happy birthday ah..

..Malaysia..!!

err...umm..the real MALAYSIA..i mean..

..ok...ok...

..i wasn't planning on writing this..but then, i thought..
what the heck?
i have questioned about life, love and sex..

might as well make the cycle complete..

so here goes..one final question..

...what is death..?

does the mere sound of it send shivers up our spine?
that it destroys anything remotely connected to the divine..
is it something so dreadful and unspeakable..
and does it have to be so sad that it becomes unbearable?

why then can't we just celebrate this phase..?
without having to put on a grieving face..
just like the birth of a new born baby
instead of feeling all mournful and dreary..

is death God's special contraption?
to ensure that we do not miss his connection..
or is it just nature's way of saying..?
too bad man, it's all part of aging..

i am just so curious you see..
if i could just live this life in perpetuity..
is there such a thing as reincarnation?
or am i to be destined for eternal damnation..

so..here's a simple question for you..
what does death and dying really mean to you..?
should it be as what the religions say?
whatever it is, go ahead, tell me, just make my day..

..what is sex..?

really..

i have asked earlier about life and love..
so this just has to be next, right?

so..tell me..anybody..

why is sex so irresistible?
and so so pleasurably remarkable?
from the time we felt those raging hormones
to the time when our bodies are hanging by the bones..

we tell our children that sex is really bad or naughty..
that they should just use their things only for potty..
but when we walk past a beautiful body
we just can't control this absolutely delicious malady..

some people only live and die for sex..
one after another they fill their hunger, and still go..who's next?
is it such an immortal sin as some would say..?
why then, did God give us such delightful toys to play?

some people, on the other hand..
swear by their gods, never to touch a maiden's hand..
to remain steadfast and in complete celibacy..
although for you and me, we might think that's just too crazy..

then there are those who crave among their own..
who are we to say, hey..that meat is really poison..
since that too has been around through the ages
long foreseen and already foretold by the sages..

and some are really into sado-masochism
while others find complete pleasure with tribadism
whatever the types that we truly seek..
i bet this world has got plenty for us to pick..

now tell me..is sex so terribly bad?
that without it, our lives should become so miserably sad..
should we not just ban it throughout the lands..?
keep all the lust at bay, and just soil the hands..

so..would anyone here care to spend..
let's have a thought or two, but let's not condemn
what is this thing called sex..?
speak your mind, my friend, just put them here in text..

hehehehe..


okok..no more poetic thoughts for awhile...and i'm not kidding..!

..what is love..

actually..?

is it a warm fuzzy feeling that makes one just wanna sing..?
going round and round doing mostly crazy things..
speaking unspeakable mushiness at every opportunity..
and calling each other baby or honey like silly..

is it a form of possession one has, like a prized trophy?
a medal to be worn for all to see?
does it really make one more complete?
or is it just a fake feeling of totality..
and is it really, truly for keeps..?
or does that depend on one's financial capability..

must it always involve lust or debauchery?
although that would be absolutely nice if you ask me..
but would that be considered as just impurity..?
and more like indulging in scandalous activities..

is it the protective concern for one's child?
that gets so misconstrued until they become naughty and wild..
or just the incessant fussing over one's parents?
for fear that they would physically leave us and never to return..

maybe it's just really about God's unending fellowship..
the only kind of love that needs no membership..
one that's supposedly perpetual and unconditional,
although i must say, it is so hard to fathom and so subliminal..

so..can anyone tell me what love is actually..?

something that each one of us seeks so instinctively..
we fight, we kill, we steal and sometimes we even deal..
and some even offers it free, but only for a meal..
and sometimes, yes sometimes..
this thing can get so fucking unbelievably unreal..!!




p/s: i'm also kidding here (sorry for the f word..hehe).................... :p